Just getting on with it

I realized that I haven't blogged in a while, I think part of it is getting used to my new job and also not doing much art lately. I think that also has something to do with getting used to my new job. Its just getting used to the flow of everything, and I really like this job and want to do my best at it. Oh well, I have the next couple of days off and plan to do some brainstorming and do some painting/ collaging. I have some ideas I want to try out.

So I have been saying for a while that I want to share some of my smoking photos, so here goes. As I said before I don't want people to think I am glorifying smoking or trying to make it look cool. I just think that the smoke itself is beautiful and inspiring in the way it moves, and I love trying to capture that movement. I have also been inspired since I saw a photo by photographer David Bailey from a book my Mum got me when I was about 17 or 18. I just looked online for the photo but can't find it at the moment, I will find it and share it soon.
So here are my photos, please let me know what you think.

Sill working on this project

So right now I have this project I started, maybe a couple months ago? It's my jewelry board which I really need to finish so I can put it up and re-organize all my pretty things. Here is a pic of it...

So as you can see I am about halfway finished.. I will still have to fix a few lines and some colours. I'd also like to add that I have since this pic added a few more colours and lines. Anyway I hope to finish it soon because it feels like its holding me back a bit. Mostly because I don't want to work on much else, just to get this finished and out of the way, and I find it hard to give myself deadlines when it comes to my art. I just feel like it should come naturally and not feel forced... I just want to get it done though! Anyway I figured Id share this and show off my cool idea too. Ill defiantly be sharing a photo when its all finished and up on my wall and everything is back in its place.


Also as I said before I will be sharing some of my photos soon. Basically they aren't really anything special, but for the past few months I have been trying to take pictures of smoke. My inspiration comes from a David Bailey photograph I saw in a book of his work I got as a gift when I was in high school. Ever since I saw that photo (and this was before I smoked) I have always been inspired and in awe of a nice photo of smoke. So I have used myself as the subject, and have been snapping different photos of myself smoking over the last while. I want to say that I am not trying to glorify smoking or make it look cool, I just find there to be something truly beautiful about smoke and the shapes it makes. So I will be sharing those soon, assuming my computer won't be to slow for me to upload and sort all my pics.

Thanks for reading.

it's time for something different and maybe a little risqué

So I was thinking, I should share some of my photography on here. I have been working on a project of sorts lately and I think it is time I share this work. Anyway you will have to wait and see but I promise to do it this weekend because I have it off.

In the middle of the night

Just a quick blurb about my work...

Thinking about my art lately, and I'm pretty sure this is true (at least it feels like it). It seems to me that I do my best work at night. The later the night gets, the more momentum I seem to get. There is something therapeutic and magical about painting during the night. It's like I'm in my own world, and time just flows so nicely. It's pretty fantastic.

SO I have yet to post some images for interpretation... so here we go, as promised.

Here are a few images of art I have created over the years. I would like you to please comment and tell me what you feel about each image, how it makes you feel. Does it affect your mood, does it remind you of anything? Anything and everything... I just want to get an idea of how different people interpret my art.

Thank you in advanced for taking the time to read my blog and comment. Your support means everything to me. I also welcome criticism and advice. 
I have shared 14 pictures of my art, I have numbered them. So if you want to share your thoughts then put the number with the corresponding pic and thoughts. Make sense? Also, clearly none of my art has a title (read my last post for info)

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9 (I just finished this and gave it to my Mum)   

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*** On a side note, This last pic is my jewelry board I have started to paint, I've since added some more colours to it but it is not finished yet. I started it a week ago today. It is four panels of cork board that I put on my wall with tacks to hang my jewelry on.

Untitled

As far as my art goes, most people who are close to me know, I really don't like to put a title on my work. The reason for this is because I believe that art is all about perception (at least my art is). I feel like when artwork has a title you immediately look for something in the work related to the title and see what the artist is trying to convey to you. I however want to achieve something else with my art. As I said, I believe that my art is all (well not all) about perception and I want the viewer to see what they want and what their perception and reality allows them to see. I am going to post some images of my work, most likely tomorrow, and I want my readers to comment and tell me what they see in my art. What and how it makes you feel, if it reminds you of anything, how the colours affect you... anything. My goal with my art is to create abstractions of realities. Something everyone can look at and enjoy and see and feel what they want from it. It's not necessarily about appealing to the masses, but offering something different for people to see. I paint and do art for the love of the process, and the mediums. I know I have skills in realism, however I feel like it is much more challenging and fun for me to create something new and unique.

I paint pictures you've never seen before.

The fruits of my labour

Last night I painted as promised at long last. With Acrylics! So here is some of the stuff I worked on. I taped some sketchbook pages to my drafting board and started up. Most of the pages already had stuff I liked, one was pretty much just silly lines so I started from scratch there. The one in the top right I have yet to paint on yet. It felt good, but I need to make a pillow seat for my ottoman and my butt is sore form sitting so long on it. It shouldn't be to hard to make a pillow seat and sew it on to the vinyl. Here are some images of my progress.

 

This last one is a canvas board I had that I have done and re-done for a while now. I was trying to use up as much paint as possible last night so I used this and re-did it again. I really like the colours, it reminds me of Van Gogh. I will most likely add some smaller lines of colour, but I think I like the way this one is going.

I'm going to try out my new studio space Ryan and I created over the weekend. It's much more organized than it was before and I think it will actually be functional! I'm excited to test it out and see how things go. I'm just going to tape up some sketchbook pages for now to my drafting board to get used to using acrylics again. It has been a few years for sure since I worked with them extensively. Living in an apartment space is limited, so I have been using watercolours and watercolour pencil crayons for quite some time to paint with. Don't get me wrong, I love watercolours and it has been good using them for so long because I believe that my technique has improved a lot. I have a much better understanding of working with them and they have become one of my favourite mediums. They are super convenient because you use them dry with water and you can do a lot with them. I love layering them with wax crayons and layering or mixing different colours. Acrylics though are also one of, if not my favourite paint and medium to use. I love mixing colours too. They mix so well, and you can really do a lot with them. Anyway this is all for now, I'm just REALLY excited. I shall post a pic of my space now. I will add some pictures of my progress later.
<3 and peace!

If I dont get my socks on right, they slide right off of my feet..

 

Sometimes I feel like it's a burden to have such a drive to create Art, but then I have to kick myself and remember how lucky I am to see the world I do and tell myself I can't be afraid anymore and to get ready to fight for myself.

I feel like I have wasted way to much time being afraid, and I know I don't give myself enough credit artistically. At the same time though I feel like I have no idea where to start. I feel like college or university isn't the right place for me, I feel like everything I want to learn about how to paint or draw I have learned. Anything else I want to learn I feel I can teach myself. And when it comes down to it you can't teach anyone 'how' to do art. Everyone will draw a flower, or paint a sunset in their own way, that is the beauty of art. I know I have a fantastic understanding of art history, principles and elements of design, different mediums and styles. I know I have the tools I need, I just feel like I need the space to make something amazing happen. I know it's already inside of me just waiting to come out. Once I start it only feels like it starts to get better. I just hope that I can somehow figure out how I need to do what I want to do. I need to stay confident in my skills and make my dreams come true. All I have ever wanted is to be an artist, and like I always say, I could paint forever. I really do live and breathe creativity all the time. From painting, and drawing, photography, sculpture/pottery, to sewing and jewelry making I have always been creative in some way in my life. I also want to incorporate sawing and jewelry/beading into my paintings. I am always coming up with new ideas to try out and new ways of approaching my art. This I am all sure of, yet I still feel like I don't know how to make it happen for myself, I still feel to afraid to show the world what I have to offer. I really hope I can change this soon because I am afraid of waking up tomorrow and being 60 and have made nothing of myself artistically. I can't deny myself the right to pursue my talents and dreams because if I do then my life and talents will be wasted.

overdue

So, it has been far to long since I have blogged. The image above is something I gave to my brother, among a few others. I also gave one to my mum. It made me feel good to give my family some art and see that they like and appreciate it. I got a request from my brother to make him 2 more like this and my mum wants one too.

Lately I have begun to realize that the biggest thing that is holding me back is fear. I think ir's fear of rejection or misunderstanding, or simply me just not having the confidence in my art I need. Im afraid to start and that something good may happen and I wont know what to do I think. I know it sounds silly but I guess I am afraid of being successful and maybe losing my love for art. Anyway it is clearly a combination of things. I really shouldn't worry so much. I need to motivate myself and get my drafting table set up properly. I need to organize and plan and take the time to not be afraid. Most of all I really need to create a good and organized space for myself.

I've been doing a lot more art lately though so that is positive. I have been painting a lot with watercolours again. I really love using them, the layers colours you can make, especially with wax crayons. I will keep artin' forever, I know that much. I coulod paint forever..... I need to come up with a simple and creative way to make money/ sell my art. I need to stop being afraid.

Recently, I opened up one of my older (but more recent) sketchbooks and started re-working some of my old creations. Adding splatters of colour or just colour in general. Clearly I love colour, Im not sure why. I think it has something to do with all the possibilities I can see. I feel colour is endless, the shades, hues and mixes of tones you can make is endless. I get excited just thinking about it. I know I started to really understand my love of art and creativity when I started high school and learned about all the basics. The principles and elemnts of design, the basics of different mediums and mixing them. Learning about Art history and the vast variety of different styles, techniques and genres that have come before me. I feel like its my duty as an artist and a person with creative drive to try and harness all my knowledge and make something Amazing. Something that will change the world. I know it sounds a little naive, I just feel like I was born to be an artist, in every sense of the word, whatever that is.
Anyway with visiting my older creations I feel like it has helped me get back some of the stuff I've forgotten as an artist. It's hard to explain, but it's kind of like being an athlete or a musician and watching or listeing to your old preformances and learning from them. I feel like now I can really learn a lot from myself as an artist, and that I can positively make myself the best I can be. This is what I was born to be.

So this is my first entry. I want to write about my art and creativity and the process. Lately I've been trying to find my way back to where I used to be with my art. For example, line work, colour combonations, abstract anatomy. I worked on these 3 below this weekend and so far I'm please with the look and texture of everything. I know my stuff sometimes looks a little childish or amature, but lately Ive just been drawn to the basics. I need to find some good inspiration and get down and dirty with my art. It's all I've ever wanted to do for as long as I can remember and I know I need to do it. I wouldnt feel this strongly otherwise. I feel like its my gift and I have to share it with the world. I feel like I'm bearing my soul with my art, which makes criticism hard to take sometimes. I really need to just be like 'fuck them, fuck that, I'll show them'. And I will, I will show the world and I will change the world with my art.