overdue

So, it has been far to long since I have blogged. The image above is something I gave to my brother, among a few others. I also gave one to my mum. It made me feel good to give my family some art and see that they like and appreciate it. I got a request from my brother to make him 2 more like this and my mum wants one too.

Lately I have begun to realize that the biggest thing that is holding me back is fear. I think ir's fear of rejection or misunderstanding, or simply me just not having the confidence in my art I need. Im afraid to start and that something good may happen and I wont know what to do I think. I know it sounds silly but I guess I am afraid of being successful and maybe losing my love for art. Anyway it is clearly a combination of things. I really shouldn't worry so much. I need to motivate myself and get my drafting table set up properly. I need to organize and plan and take the time to not be afraid. Most of all I really need to create a good and organized space for myself.

I've been doing a lot more art lately though so that is positive. I have been painting a lot with watercolours again. I really love using them, the layers colours you can make, especially with wax crayons. I will keep artin' forever, I know that much. I coulod paint forever..... I need to come up with a simple and creative way to make money/ sell my art. I need to stop being afraid.